Saturday, November 25, 2006
I Am Feeling Some Power Bud in Me Right Now
The Moth That God Made Blind
Among cocoa-nut palms of a far oasis,
Conceived in the light of Arabian moons,
There are butterflies born in mosaic date-vases,
That emerge black and vermeil from yellow cocoons.
Some say that for sweetness they cannot see far,--
That their land is too gorgeous to free their eyes wide
To horizons which knife-like would only mar
Their joy with a barren and steely tide--
That they only can see when their moon limits vision,
Their mother, the Moon, marks a halo of light
On their own small oasis, ray-cut, an incision,
Where are set all the myriad jewelleries of night.
So they sleep in the shade of black palm-bark at noon,
Blind only in day, but remembering that soon
She will flush their hid wings in the evening to blaze
Countless rubies and tapers in the oasis' blue haze.
But over one moth's eyes were tissues at birth
Too multiplied even to center his gaze
On that circle of paradise cool in the night;--
Never came light through that honey-thick glaze.
And had not his pinions with signs mystical
And rings macrocosmic won envy as thrall,
They had scorned him, so humbly low, bound there and tied
At night like a grain of sand, futile and dried.
But once though, he learned of that span of his wings,--
The florescence, the power he felt bud at the time
When the others were blinded by all waking things;
And he ventured the desert,--his wings took the climb.
And lo, in that dawn he was pierroting over,--
Swinging in spirals round the fresh breasts of day.
The moat of the desert was melthing from clover
To yellow,--to crystal,--a sea of white spray--
Till the sun, he still gyrating, shot out all white,--
Though a black god to him in a dizzying night;--
And without one cloud-car in that wide meshless blue
The sun saw a ruby brightening ever, that flew.
Seething and rounding in long streams of light
The heat led the moth up in octopus arms:
The honey-wax eyes could find no alarm,
But they burned thinly blind like an orange peeled white.
And the torrid hum of great wings was his song
When below him he saw what his whole race had shunned--
Great horizons and systems and shores all along
Which blue tides of cool moons were slow shaken and sunned.
A little time only, for sight burned as deep
As his blindness before had frozen in Hell,
And his wings atom-withered,--gone,--left but a leap--
To the desert,--back,--down,--still lonely he fell.
I have hunted long years for a spark in the sand;--
My eyes have hugged beauty and winged life's brief spell.
These things I have:--a withered hand;--
Dim eyes;--a tongue that cannot tell.
I thought this would be a good opportunity to post in its entirety the worst poem ever written by Hart Crane, since this website is all about honesty. It's so awful, you guys--with the tissues and the pierroting and the fresh breasts of day! It makes me giggle like a baby, so it is a particular favorite of mine, and has exerted a huge influence on my own writing. In response, I have drawn a picture of God stabbing out the eyes of a moth with a realistic knife. The moon is depicted as a tiny statue squatting to give birth, and the sun is drawn directly opposite, gyrating and shooting out all white onto God's hand. Bonus points if you can spot the fresh breasts of day. Also, do you like how in my picture, it is both day and night at the same time? Do not apply your feeble intellects to the problem of how, just trust in my supreme artistry and encyclopedic knowledge of scientific phenomena.
P.S. Alas, the poem is so rich in insanities that I had no space to include the hot octopus made of light, which I would very much like to have done.